2011

I’m in Marvin’s room

Sitting by the ‘phone

Just staring at them blowing a ‘shroom

The click of the keyring before the dial tone

Rings loudly

The phone

I pick it up

Cradling my cup set full of Rosé

“Talk to me

Please say something”

She breathes on the other side of the line

“I slept with my best friend’s girlfriend

I didn’t even feel bad about it”

She breathes on the other side of the line

“I see you in my dreams at night

An angel dressed in white

My angel

Please

Give me a chance

Cos I know you’re the one for me”

She says nothing

I am in Marvin’s room

Sitting by the phone

Just staring at them blowing a ‘shroom

The click of the keyring before the dial tone

Rings loudly

The phone

I pick it up

Cradling my cup set full of Rosé

“Talk to me

Please say something”

She breathes on the other side of the line

“I don’t love you

I’ve never loved you

Can you just be happy for me?

I love him ”

I breathe on the other side of the line

“We can’t be anything more than this

You’re like a brother to me”

I breathe on the other side of the line

The words a lump in my throat

I’m in Marvin’s room

Sitting by the ‘phone

Just staring at them blowing a ‘shroom

The click of the keyring before the dial tone

Rings loudly

The phone

I pick it up

Cradling my cup set full of Rosé

There is no speak

Just breathing

“I miss you”

Just breathing

I scream

I slam the receiver into its cradle and leave the room

The room intoxicated with the fumes of young love and happy couples reminding me of the cold hollow inside me

“I love you

I love you so much it hurts”

The tear lines appear

Slit wrists

The blood and salt coagulate on my shoes

I bleed

I cry

My sobs drowned

While the music rages on

I’m in Marvin’s room

Sitting by the ‘phone

Just staring at them blowing a ‘shroom

The click of the keyring before the dial tone

Rings loudly

The phone

I pick it up

Cradling my cup set full of Rosé

Just breathing

© Sena Frost “17

Drake – Marvin’s Room

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Familiar

 

Have I ever told you your eyes glint when you’re hungry?

When you bite your lips and fidget nervously

It never fails to surprise me

You look like a child right before a tantrum

All cuddly and cute and all sorts of intense

A starved teddy-bear ready to ravage anything and everything in its path.

 

Did you know you leave flowers in your wake?

When your hand slinks in mine as we take a walk

It always begins awkwardly 

Then our hands do the thing and fit in each other

There

See you smiling

That’s the flower I’m talking about.

 

Did I tell you that you sleep like a statue?

Perfectly carved in stillness

You

Hewn from the wood of Father’s own likeness

Ebony

Touched with the graceful tendrils of gold

A flower in a field

Swaying rhythmically

A metronome of beauty

Beautifully timed to your steady breathing.

 

You are so beautiful when you wake.

Your elegance is in the tousled locks of hair that frame the lustrous sheen of your high forehead adorning the pearly orbs of your eyes

And your succulent garnet lips which demand a good morning kiss

Stolen just as you rise from the couple of the sleep lover into the fragrant day rise.

 

I am aware of your being in the dark

I am intimate with the shape of you

I draw your outlines in the furore of chaos

And you stand out

As

I imagine you in the light

Hallucinations wrought by the soporific daze that is you

Overwhelming my senses

I’m high

With the thought of you.

 

I know your little details

The scars patterning your legs

The slant of your eyes when you smile

The wrinkle thing your nose does

When you furrow your brow in concentration

Or giggle unashamedly

Wiggling like a bauble in the hands of a toddler

Your occasional prattle

When your voice jingles in my brain

And your uncomfortable steely silence

Where nothing creases your impassive face.

I am familiar with you

In spirit and in being

Feeling your heart throb as you touch mine

We are made of the God-stuff

On the cosmic plain where the lines blur

And planes shift

And bodies cascade in chocolate resplendence

As stars fall and galaxies collide

As our minds meld

Forming black holes and leaving nebulae in our wake.

 

hand in hand, image courtesy google images

© Sena Frost ‘17

 

Stargazing

Peering into your infinite darkness

Wanderers orbiting in perpetuity

Nebulae of desire swirling in absolute obliqueness

To 

Birthing stars of passion 

Lightyears away 

From 

Atoms of elements committed to the big secret 

Unlocked by the spectacular haze of going supernova

Constellations are wrought

In 

The curves of the comet sling-shooting round your

Obsidian 

Infinity ever expanding

The keys to life 

As spoken by you

As I 

Keep 

Peering into your infinite darkness

Rocks fall from the sky.
© Sena Frost 2k16

The Sea and The Wind 

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Turbulent seas

Under winds whipping

Storms passionate
Ships wreak

Between tides

Drowns intimately
Fishes warble

In the sailor’s silent screams 

As he is dragged into Davy Jones’ locker

Oyster pearls marble 

In the mermaid’s dreams 

In the darkness the ocean is mucker
The sea

The Fisher’s net

Caught us pure

In the Bermuda. 

Glistening sand

Beneath the wavy waters

Draws in it

The thing we so wonder
Seabirds bring good tidings 

And I look through my spyglass 

Land; you

The sextant parallel with your beautiful breasts,

Right where the wave crests

Your hair lush

Adorned with the smile of tropical flowers 

None broader than the grin of your lips
He that was moulded from pure beach sand. 

Prefect but flawed. 

Says his lover is the sea. 

Feast your eyes

On the hollow between my temples

Let me tease you

With the smile you so adore
She that was moulded from salt and sea spray

Says her lover is the land

Kiss me so gently 

In the hollow of my neck

Let me tease you with the smile you so adore.
©Sena Frost & Beebe Brako

20:11 GMT, 02-09-2016

two thirty four with dumsor and a storm

Vamping. Image courtesy google.com

2.34 AM

Sleep flees from me

A curtain blown away by the wind of change

Lifting the trapdoor

Creaky hinges

So I listen to the scurrying feet of mice

Peer into the inky blackness

Of nothingness

The void

Where everything in plain sight is hidden.

 

2:35AM

The cloth slips for free

Leaving my naked body to the mosquitos’ choral rage

A biochemical spoor

For emotional binges

Gut wrenching and heart burning and all together not very nice

I fear the plainness

Of the Loch Ness

Monster unsighted and generally avoid

The pain of freedom now forbidden.

 

2:36 AM

Pain wells up in my chest

A burning fever

An onslaught of hormones

Adrenaline pumping through capillaries

Pupils dilating to refract the tiniest amount of light

Sigh

ECG at their best again

I peek outside

And the dark skies are laden with torrents of regret

A hailstorm of “I miss you”s

All the while obsessing about the dry earth

Which I stopped watering

And now

He curates in the hope of a cocoa harvest.

 

2:37AM

I say “It is for the best”

But I doubt the nature of my self-sacrifice like a dulled cleaver

Trying to split meat from bones

Burning through the list of ancillaries

While it roars thunder fright

And strikes lightning nigh,

I wonder why my thoughts cannot abstain

And leave her on the other side

The mirrors of my soul reflect

On the countless “I love you”s

And the inglorious moments of the cold hearth

Where once smiles were simmering

Slow

The tears well up in the wake of the tempest

 

2:38AM

Nothing good comes easy

And yeah

Life sucks

Drawing inspiration from ghosts I have tried to banish

Moved into the storeroom where all broken things go

But here I am

Train wrecked

Standing at the verge

Feeling alone

But then

Silence.

 

2:39AM

I am dizzy

Fear

Of all that I have lost and the worst of lucks

I cannot vanish

Miraculously the tears do not flow

I grab hold of the pram

Holding my beautiful blue babies of my star trek

Despairs submerge

And Vulcan logic sudden

Becomes lucid with alphanumeric phosphorescence.

 

2:40AM

Sleep beckons

Deep journeys twenty thousand leagues under the ocean

Steep cliff faces

For the condors and king raptors

Floors of lush grass for the sheep frolicking

Doors opened by hands skeletal

While she closes hers shut

Bile jaundices my eyes

Sterile but not malignant

Alliterating my fluctuations of thought while

Perambulating the far reaches of the universe yet

Bifurcating the black hole of apocalypse

In the hour of poetry

And yet

Here I am

Staring at my phone screen

Unasleep.

© Sena Frost 2k16

 

 

 

 

 

Moments

I remember the moment
When I felt alone
No good
And the world was against me
Yes
Even you were with them.

I remember the moment
When we first came together
I will never forget the surprise on your face
Your dark little eyes shining
Black pearls pooled
Almost dazed
Like it was a dream.

I remember the moment
We spent under the sheets
Becoming one
Loving
Under the moonlight coming through the window
Even though
I had to go home.

I remember the moment
Your pretty little face
With the nappy hair
Turned into a frown.
It is still the cutest expression I have seen on your face.
And doubt set in
Over a face in a virtual world.

I remember the moment
I sank to my knees
Pleading
For a chance to work at love again.
While I made
The will to cut
And remove the shade tree
So you could see the plain.

I remember the moment
You trembled
And whispered into my ear
“I love you”
And I loved you too.

I remember the moment
The inglorious time
When day and night
Clashed for the umpteenth time.
And the clouds parted
Taking away the rain.

I know in this moment
Day and night can never be together
I cannot be your knight in shining armour
But still
Te amor.
Forever and always.

In this moment
I know
I never wrote odes about your beauty
But I froze those moments
Making your beauty immortal.
This love letter
Milks the salt from my eyes
Because
It is a little too late
For the moon to be a star.

In this moment
My heart longs for you
To be happy
But time is a circle
And I am a straight line.

Thank you
For the moments we shared
And our star flickered
Bright.
Even if it was just
For
A moment in time.

J
© Sena Frost 2k16

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Patterns

A boy and a girl set out to find a girl and a boy
A boy met a girl
And they fell in love.
It was the beginning and the end
Or so they thought.

A boy set out to find a girl
A boy met a girl
And he fell in love
It was the end
Or so he thought.

A girl set out to find a boy
A girl met a boy
And she fell in love
It was the beginning
Or so she thought.

A boy and a girl set out to find a girl and a boy
A boy met a girl
And they fell in love.
It was the beginning and the end
Or so they thought.

© Sena Frost 2k16